Thursday, February 3

2. Have you changed in the past 2 years?

Yess! I have changed an awful lot. A lot of it for the worse. Some for the good. I suppose as you get older, you start to do things that older people 'do'..that has a huuuuge effect on you as a person. Whether you do it at a young age or older age. No matter what you're always going to get judged for who you are. I tend to care a lot more about what I look like because I have a verrry low self esteem. I'm one of them people who want to be perfect and would try there hardest. I just fail at it. On the other hand.. i've realised to appreciate my friends and my family a lot more than I ever have. I've lost and been through so many things and i've realised that the most important people in your life are not those you can't have but the ones that you need to keep..


I know it's a tad personal. But i'm up for letting out all feelings on here.. So today I found out that my grandad has got cancer. First reaction. I cried my eyes out, for ages. Sobbed an awful lot. It's hard because we've been through it already. It makes me feel sick, he's done nothing bad. Never said a bad word against anyone but yet something so bad happens to him? My Nan's heartbroken..and there's just nothing anyone can do :( I don't know what to say, or how to approach anyone. All we can do now is just hope he'll pull through. I mean he should do! It's gonna be the hardest few weeks of my life and I feel sick that the cunts at Scarborough and James Cook hospital could of stopped this from happening if they didn't pratt around. But now all we can do is just wish and hope for the <3<3

Wednesday, February 2

Weird things you do when you're alone...?

Hmm.. quite difficult this one. Cos when you're alone and you're doing things you don't think about how wierd they are. But yeah, usually just dance around, sing loud, pulling faces in the mirror is a usual one. Think alot too. I like thinking, but not too much. That fucks you up.. I also like jumping around the room or fat lapping my house. Eeek, I do more when i'm bored and alone than I do when i'm with people!


SO! I missed a day out. Maybe that's because I forgot..or maybe it's because i've got such an exciting life (not gunna happen) that i've just got no time! I have have have to tell you though bloggers...I got a new slinky today. Deffo made my day! First thing I did? Yeahhh, slinked it into my pa's face.. he didn't like it but he is cerrrrtainly not getting his hands anywhere near this one...Oh and 30 day challenge. Get in my lifeeee! :)

Monday, January 31

Another day...

So, knowing that i'm going to write a blog at the end of my day really makes me want to do something...exciting! That's not particularly the case however but we can give it a go! I can't say my days include much as far as Whitby College is concerned but hey! School was average, just the usual really! Came home to find out my grandad's being rushed into hospital...again. He'll be tip top soon though, we hope! :) Came to my newly decorated room (which I love so so so much!) and started blasting Nicki Minaj.. deffo a personal fave atm! She's a babe. But anyway, I went to Hull Uni the other day for a Health and Social trip and got a "goody bag"; you could call it! It had a slinky innit (should of seen my face) I opened it for the first time, had it five minutes and found great enjoyment in swinging it in my dad's face. Little did I know when he said "i'll break it when I get hold of it" he actually meant it. Yep, RIP slinky. I was red, absolutely fuming. Slammed doors and threw a tantrum. Deffo won't be talking to him until he buys me a new one! After my feud I decided to head about -45436 degrees! It's freezing out there man! Makes me want Summer even more! I also hate being alone, it makes me think about things. About people. I really miss certain people who meant a lot to me but hey, what can you do?! People change but the love for them doesn't? That's what gets me. However with cold tootsies and fingers, a huge shooting pain down my leg and a sickly stomach ache (deffo regretting that Mars bar I just feasted on).. I think i'm gunna call it a night! Keep living you gorgeous'. <3

Sunday, January 30

Something new!

Hi Quite speechless to say the least. I'm not quite sure of what this is all about but it looks fun and i'm up for that. Besides, sharing is caring! So I guess that's good. First blog of my life on here and it's not going to include much. I'd talk about my day but i've done little to nothing. Oh how boring Sundays are!

I also got Formspring back...sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me.
PS. I miss summer 2009.